See Me Through

My Father be with me
through all the hard and
trying times,
Make yourself ever-so available,
Make your love for me ever-so
easy ti find.

You be the one to
see me through that dark and
lonely tunnel,
Father let me have deep within
that heavenly rest for my soul.

Be my strength when
I maybe weak,
For I am coming to you as your
child oh so humble and meek.

Oh Father I'm asking you to let
my every waking day be a living
testimony of your exquisite love,
grace and mercy.

I have a deep desire that's
burning like fire within because
I want your people to know
nothing but the truth,
I ask you now Lord, strength'n
me, use me be with me always
And above all walk by my side
 and help me to see your people
Through.  

Oh Lord,
               Save me from the heartache 
and pain,
                Give to me the love and
happiness that has been so hard to
                obtain.


Save me from wasting time and
               precious years,
Take from me the hurt behind  so
              many shed tears.


Oh Lord,
               No more do I wish to be 
beaten, tossed to and fro, broken, nor
               bruised and battered,
Wrap me softly in your loving arms
               to be kept away from all harm
is what my heart seeks after.


              To be done with life, it's struggles 
and what seems to be un-passable test,
              To be set free from this old world
so that my soul can at last have peace and 
              heavenly rest.


Oh Lord,
               Help me, save me before my
heart towards everyone becomes darken
              I want no more to wrestle 
against this flesh I must dwell within,


             It's your voice I want to here
oh lord and to say Yes to your will,
            Please instill in me what I
need to give you my all to restrain 
            forever from a life known
of SIN...
            

Are You

Are you the sun
the moon
the rain
the one that's able to release me from any type of pain?

Are you my morning star
my loving angel
my forever burning light
my shield against any danger that maybe lurking out in the dark at night?

Are you my heart
my mind
my soul
those very inner emotions that are so hard to control?

Are you my smile
my frown
my fresh start
will you forever stay with me or will you depart?

Are you my truth
my promise
my lie
the hand that wipes my tears away each time I sit and cry?

If you are all these things all I ask is for you to never leave
me without saying goodbye,
For if that were the case my love would quickly turn to hate
And I would soon just ball up and Die.  

What If?

     What if I were to say that meeting you made me a bit glad
That thinking about you turns my days from being quite sad


     What if I was to tell you I wish things between us could get stronger
because meeting someone like you compels me to want you around longer


      What if I told you I wanted to share with you all of my concerns
Hoping that some day your heart with passion would burn


       What if I told you that meeting you was no mere misstate
And that the thought of you in my life makes me contemplate


        What if I told you that you were the sweetest, kindest treat
And after our first conversation I thought about you for weeks


         What if I were to say that I feel things with us could work out
Would you give me the opportunity to erase all of your doubt 


Saying What If is like talking about a dream and in a dream things
aren't always as they seem.
So maybe we can make this What If a reality and soon my What If
will mean you will belong to only Me...


            

My Mind

Not quite sure of where,
when or how I should
start,
My mind is a place of
pleasant and disastrous
art.

So many words and visions
sometimes seem trapped inside
this dome,
Wanting so much to be read,
heard and seen for only than
can they let go of the title
unknown.

A place filled with fantasies
and dreams that may or may
not come true,
At times chaos, destruction
and violence may pass through.

It's a place where all of life's
heartaches, bumps and bruises
are stored away,
Also at least one cherished
memory of one happy
day.

A place where thoughts of
death and eternal life fight
constantly to win,
A place where Yes, can
remember a time when being
taken over by the lustful
demon of sin.

It's a place so complex and
thought to be insane,
It's nothing more than a
master piece that GOD put
together and called a
brain.

One day the world will know
all about the secrets that right
now are confined,
For it will never be forgotten
but forever recorded here in

                                       My Mind.

  

I am Reminded

I am reminded each and 
every time I see his face,
Reminded of the strong 
desire I fill for him
now and that unforgettable
taste.


I am reminded of the
softness of his lips,
Reminded of how it felt
to be there in his grip.


I am reminded of a long
and somewhat dark hall-
way,
Reminded of how my heart 
skipped a beat when i herd
him say...


I am reminded of  the look
I saw there in his eyes,
Reminded of how much he
was able to make my temperature
rise.


I am reminded of a night
when he told me about what
he liked,
Reminded of how he left me 
feeling so enticed.


I am reminded of finally
getting at least part of my
wish,
I am reminded of the pleasure
I felt when upon my lips he
placed that first kiss.

How?

How is one to remain in a situation

Or relationship that keeps them from being

All that he or she can be?

With holding them from growth, success,

And the ability to spread there wings and

Fly free.

How can someone really expect another

To go on living a disappointing and very

Painful lie?

"There's no way" once you've given all that

You could give; it's time to start living, no more

Can you sit there letting your life pass you by.

How can one fight off or fight against

What or who the heart desirous?

That something or someone who is meant

To remain for all time's, whose love will never

Die off, fade away, or grow tired.

How can one not enjoy the rainbow after

A bad storm?

It's something to be able to just look upon

It, to feel the happiness it brings you inside

Too finally, at last see beauty at its true form.

HOW,

          How can one deny what he or she feels?

In life we are given choice's, sometimes it may not

           Be easy, but it's up to us to choose what is

True and what we believe to be 100% real.

                                                                                    

                                                                     (I Choose You)

My Kool-Aid

My dear old kool-aid sour yet oh so tasty

sweet at the same time, all those lusciously

different flavors can hopefully one day be mine.

You brighten up my darkest days, with you bright lemon

and oranges ways, I want very much for you to stick around

cause maybe one day you'll be the right flavor I was

searching for, but didn't know I had already found.

You have a very sweet side to also, with that

jamin fruit punch and your jumpin black cherry,

now all you need is the right slamin strawberry.

Now kool-aid if you ever need a shot of sugar to

make you a bit sweeta, don't worry believe me I

won't hesitate to be there in a hurry.

And when you feel as if the kool-aid sprit is

no moe, you can call ms. sugar and she will

be there, with your sweet and sour pink

lemonade and you'll be ready to go.

My Child

My child come put all your
trust in me,
For I am the way, the truth
and the life. A place have I
prepared just for you for all
of eternity.

I can help you rid yourself
of depression and loneliness,
For I am the Great I am
offering love and tender kindness.

My child forgotten you are
not,
Through the suffering and pain
I see you have fought.

But be not moved by the
troubles in this life you may
face,
For I alone will stretch forth
my right hand full of mercy
and grace.

My child I am here knocking
at your door,
Will you let me in? For I bring
with me salvation and so much
more.

I know all to well how you
stumble and fall,
For I was right there beside
you through it all.

My child let victory be yours
today,
Take my hand, never let go
and this I can promise thee
I am the one who will never
lead you astray.

Jail

Free him from those walls
that are closing in on him,
Free him from that small place
before his light grows dim.


Free him from those eyes that
watch him as he goes walking
by,
Free him from that feeling of 
just wanting to die.


Free him from the foul smell
and day old food,
Free him from having to use 
that disgusting sixty-year old
stool.


Free him from the anger that
caused him to end up there
Free him from that orange 
jumpsuit he never thought he
would ever have to wear,
Free him from that man
named Ta-Ta-licious
that may end up doing his
hair.


Free him from being known as
in-mate number 50321,
Free him from the bitterness of
how many visits he had, sadly to
say which were none.


Free him from what he believes
at the time maybe worse than
hell,
Free him from that place we
all try to stay clear of, 

                                    Free him from Jail.

Together

Together we will share in
that beautiful part of life
that has been up until now
so far out of reach.


Together we will climb the
highest of mountains,
we will swim the deepest of 
seas.


Together we will accomplish those
goals that we felt at one time
were lost,
we will at last be all, what and 
who we were destine to be. 


Together we will define that truth
in the word Unconditional,
we will finally see how dreams 
can become reality.


With No restraints No boundaries
we can and we shall determine  
our destiny,
totally, completely and at last
free.    
                       Together

How Long?

   

How long will you be around without

being able to hit?

How long can you go with just looking

at her body, and not touching every

inch of it?

How long can sit back and

only watch the movement of

her thighs?

How long will you go on

enduring that firey feeling

you have deep inside?

How long can you go with

just sharing a passionate look

that you see there in her eyes?

How long will you remain in her

presents without jumping on her and

draining her dry?

How long can you fight againest that

feeling of wanting to be inside her walls?

How long can you go without the moans

and grown's, go on without hearing

the sexiness in her voice when its your

name she calls?

How long will you reamin,

How long can you hang,

How long will you be in her life

without SEX being the

biggest thang???????????????

I have kissed as though it may be
my last,
And with one glance taken by hopes of
futures dawn silencing dark whispers of my past.


I have laid my head upon the chest of
endurance,
And once fell asleep in the arms of
assurance.


I have felt the face of a king,
And my freedom I would give gladly 
If upon this finger he placed a ring.


My heart beats, No it races for life is
now complete no longer void,
I know now what it feels like to cry
true tears of  joy.


I owe all thanks to but only one
My heavenly father above,
for I am finally experiencing Unconditional
Love.

Jewel

As the Lord closes one long and painful door in my life,
            He has already opened a window only to find a rare jewel that so
many others have passed by.


The others passed by not knowing the real value of what was staring 
them in the face.


         Luckily I did.


This rare jewel was meant to be handled with tender loving care,
elegance and grace.


Just a mere glimpse of what's hidden inside brings about laughter
through the storm and rain, brings hope when you thought all was
lost  and brings the feeling of unconditional love when one never
thought it was possible to gain.


When you truly look upon this rare jewel your heart sings a beautiful
melody. You can hear the chorus of a thousand angels so divine and 
heavenly.


When holding this jewel your heart sings, the pain goes away and hope
begins. Just knowing that such a jewel was created brings forth pure
joy and happiness within.


All others were not meant to know of it's true beauty, love and 
significance. All others were not meant to know the value of this
wonderful jewel that I've found.


Discovering this jewel was just for me. Some will search a lifetime to 
find such a jewel as mine and never succeed.


I truly thank God that this precious jewel that I've found is none other
then ME.